psychicgore of realizing you're a lesbian when you're like 22

GENESIS: soemtime in spring

I guess it's been a minute. I'm at the aforementioned job now, and three months feels like no time and like forever.

i'm kinda going through it right now to be honest. it's been a really intense few months

I moved here and started dating, and for the first time got the chance to date people that aren't men and now I've realized that I'm probably a lesbian-- or what my friend told me is called a "berlin lesbian", which is just someone who dates anyone who isn't a man.

kind of crazy, I knew I could be attracted to women but i never thought it was this serious lol.

so naturally i got two nose piercings and 2 tattoos and now I'm learning to tattoo and i tattooed myself last week for the first time and I came out to my parents and my mom is being so fucking weird about it even though i literally just said i'm dating girls, not even that i'm a lesbian

I know it could be worse but it's still been hard on me

i also sort of fell in love with a one night stand i had

also i went out to a dj set rave (?? idk what constitutes a rave) and danced till 4am on saturday and it was so so so amazing like in my body it felt so good

took a 3 hour nap today which is why i am still up

i try to draw everyday, i've been obsessed obsessed with drawing and abstract drawing and drawing for tattooing

i feel like i'm finally becoming who i want to be

with love

ephema

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